Mindfulness Exercises

I’m a contemplative person by nature, mulling over past events and frequently visualizing my future. I like to think long and hard and often about things of meaning in my life. And mayyybe sometimes not so meaningful things. But as much as I enjoy this mental exercise, I am cursed with a miserable memory. It’s becoming increasingly alarming now that I’m old enough to be aware of my foggy recollection.

A couple years ago, I had a therapist who encouraged me to practice mindfulness, and I took the directive to heart. Instead of waiting for pockets of quiet in my busy life, to crawl inside myself and contemplate to my heart’s content, I began to practice awareness in real time, painting moments onto the canvas of my memory. Partly to find the peace and balance that mindfulness supposedly brings, but also in the hopes of capturing my current reality for later enjoyment.  It’s taken practice and I am far from my goal, but the practice of mindfulness has been amazing for this season of travel.

While so much richness of life swirls past us in a wave of new cities, new experiences, new interactions, I am able to reach out and snatch down small moments that carry associations to greater memories. While words are my favorite thing to play with, to roll around and mold together, I often think in images. The combination is a trait I attribute to my father. It’s why concrete objects, things that can be sensed– seen, felt, tasted– are often used as descriptors of things that don’t immediately seem related, colorfully bringing to life another person or event or location.

I hope that in the last couple months of our travels, I’ll be able to record more and more of these memories in my little Notes app on my phone. Sometimes I feel silly, bent over the screen frantically typing away, squirreling up my memories. But it’s worth it. And when I get it down fresh, I can easily go back and expand on my memories. Over time they fade and I can’t remember all the other pieces of the puzzle. It’s like I only have that little tiny window, each word a square inch that lets me look into a moment frozen in time. Like this memory of fall in Switzerland, which I remember so vividly. The ten seconds I described are magically seared onto my memory, but the rest of the night is getting fuzzy. Thankfully, I’ll always have “goosebumps on my freshly shaven legs” to evoke memories of family and farm towns and nights when you’re so bone tired from eating and talking and laughing, but you still want to stay up and linger just another hour longer.

Riding home in the cold,

Goosebumps on my freshly shaven legs,

Standing on the bike pedals up off the wet seat,

Riding by the village bell tower and hearing it toll the first of 10 peals.

But I’m A Tourist: Differentiating Between Cultural and Spiritual Experiences

I choose to view the world in a very holistic way. The spiritual and the physical exist equally. Equally as strong, equally as present. That’s my worldview. However, while this deliberate perspective makes me more sensitive to the supernatural, I don’t feel I’ve honed or tended to this spiritual gift. I am by nature an analytical thinker, and that can tempt me to reduce the world to the purely physical.

Travel has changed this in some ways as the developing world, as a cultural whole, often adopts the holistic world view. It’s much easier to see the connection of spiritual and physical here. As a result, I’ve been confronted with several spiritual predicaments: Is it ok to participate in an experience that has spiritual roots if it is also hailed as a cultural experience? What about just observing it? I’m tempted to offer the “but I’m a tourist” defense. After all, one of my primary goals in life these days is flinging myself full measure into every iconic experience.

The first time I experienced this inner conflict was while in Malaysia. To set the scene, I must tell you that we seemed to have been missing famous events left and right while traveling. (And it has continued since we left KL!) So of course, we thought we had hit the jackpot when we realized we’d be in Malaysia during Thaipusam– a Hindu holiday which happens just once a year– and Chinese New Year. These would both be huge cultural events that we’d be lucky to observe. Everyone we met, including every taxi driver we had, urged us to go to the Hindu celebration in Batu Caves during Thaipusam. They all clucked their tongues and bobbed their heads and said yes, we were so lucky. We were lucky to be here just at the right time to catch this famous event. “A million people attend every year. And you arrived just in time!”

However, as I started to learn more about the event, I felt unsettled in my spirit. (You can learn more about Thaipusam here, but I have to warn any squeamish readers that a careful perusal of that webpage may make you uncomfortable. The event involves trances and self-mutilation.) But not only was I uncomfortable purely on a physical level, I was also disturbed on a spiritual level as the whole purpose of the holiday is to honor a spiritual deity that I believe is leading people away from the one true God.

Tyler didn’t feel the same uneasiness as I did, so I spent a lot of time mulling over the situation and identifying my motives. On one hand, I felt deep sadness over people being slaves to rituals that I knew weren’t working for them. On the other hand, aren’t there ways we’re slaves to our own religious rituals? Who was I to judge?

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This is a guest post for my friend, Patricia, from Gentile Next Door. Read the post in its entirety at the link above.

On the emotions of moving (again)

Moving dredges up deep emotion in me. A state of turmoil over all the change. And despite possessing what I consider to be a very astute and self-aware personality, this type of change seems to put me in a fog that hides the real reasons for my stress and impatience and tears. It isn’t until the dust is settling and I’m waving goodbye to my most treasured sense of home– our house in Marion, our best friends in Alaska– that I realize how hard the move was and how there are feelings deep in me, tied to the move, that have caused my recent string of bad days.

Now imagine me “moving” every few weeks. It’s complicated has never been a more accurate descriptor. For Tyler and I both, this year has been eye-opening in ways we weren’t expecting. Last summer, we looked each other in the eye, shook metaphorical hands, and hopped onto the emotional rollercoaster ride of our lives, trusting in our pact to put up with one another no matter what. At times we’ve gripped each other white-knuckled and screaming– in alternating joy and fear– and at other times it seems that last August we accidentally slipped into two different cars on a dual track. While one rose up, the other plummeted.

Our relationship has been through the ringer this year. While I think it’s a natural stage after three years of marriage– part of the growing pains of two becoming one– I also recognize the stress that nomadic living has introduced into our lives separately, and how that inevitably affects us together.

Moving dredges up deep emotion in me. A state of turmoil over all the change.  And it turns out, it does the same for Tyler when we move at this pace. While I stress about the future, he struggles in the present. I wonder: are we making the right trade-off; what will we do when we stop moving at 100mph and have to confront life in one place; will I regret this? Tyler is too drained to think at all. He simply sits in his emotions and feels them weigh him down.

The emotions of moving aren’t as intense as when we’ve spent significant time investing in one place, but they come at us much more frequently. It’s been an uphill battle to develop empathy and practice patience with one another during this time. It seems we ought to understand the other’s feelings, but sometimes that fog makes one rather short-sighted. I’m thankful we can say we’ve held– if only barely– to our unspoken pact and continued to grow and love one another.

After having passed the halfway mark in year two of travel, we began hesitantly looking to the future. In the past two months, we’ve dreamt up every possible scenario for year three. We’ve talked about jumping ship completely and returning to “average life” earlier than expected. We’ve talked about extending the nomadic journey and drifting around a bit longer. We’ve run numbers and assessed motives. We’ve considered career paths and business proprietorship. We’ve been over it all… and we still aren’t sure.

We know we need a break from the rollercoaster though, so we’re going to disembark for awhile. We already have booked flights back to the States for an Alaskan reunion in the fall and family time during the holiday season. And for now, we’re shuffling through the practicalities of setting off for our next destination.

We say goodbye to Asia in less than a week, and we return with open arms to Europe. This time, we’ll be exploring some countries in the south– Turkey, Greece, and Italy. These places have all been at the top of my list for Things to Be Excited about During Year Two, so I can feel my morale slowly building for these last few months of moving. So many good things to look forward to; I know it will be worth it!

How do you handle moving? Will you be around for us to see you during our family-and-friends tour this fall/winter??

Welcome to The Wild Rumor

Welcome to our new blog, The Wild Rumor.

Welcome to the new space. I’d love to hear your first impressions!

Enjoy exploring and seeing the changes that have been made. The homepage has been kept very simple and straightforward. The emphasis is simply on the stories and photographs.

Since I am moving towards much wordier posts, I’ve kept some color on the site with the instagram photos at the bottom of each page. If you don’t already follow along on instagram, be sure to follow along @leendamurph and @teamurph. And these days, snapchat is my favorite one-woman reality show production. You can find us there @leendamurph as well.

Finally, you’ll notice we’ve added a shop to the blog. I’ve gotten so many questions about what we packed for our year long trip abroad. In fact, this post about what’s in my suitcase consistently brings in as many (or more!) new viewers each day as the loyal readers who come for new posts. Crazy! So, to help inspire others in their packing– or other purchases for at home/ on the road– and to make a small amount of money to keep the blog going, we’ve added a shop with affiliate links to all our favorite products. These are all things we use and love, or we’d love to have to use. When someone clicks on the link from our shop, it will take them to the seller’s page where we get a small commission from any purchases made. This comes at no cost to the buyer, but provides us a little income while we are traveling full time with no jobs (; Thanks for supporting the Murphys and The Wild Rumor!

I shared a tiny bit of why I chose the name for this blog in my last post, but you can also get a taste in the blog manifesto. The Wild Rumor will remain a lifestyle blog covering a variety of topics of interest in our lives, but you can expect to read a lot of personal essays on relationships, the experience of travel, and the search for our place in community. I also will continue to share our monthly recap by way of the Good Things series, yearly reviews and goal setting, and occasional travel or “life at home” features.

Thanks for being a part of my years of blogging at The Murphmans, and welcome to the next chapter of our online lives!

ps. i wouldn’t be mad if you still called us the Murphmans (;

Breaking Up Is Hard to Do

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This blog has been a space for sporadic creative activity for the last three years, documenting so many mundane moments of our early years as a couple. And this is the last post I’ll publish on The Murphmans before the site disappears tomorrow.

The decision to close the blog was easy– it no longer is even remotely a joint venture, chronicling our daily lives and respective interests. But deciding how to continue the process of cataloguing special events, sharing our story with others, and exploring personal topics through essays– that was the difficult part.

I knew I wanted to continue writing because I really enjoy it. And I also knew that connecting with others through the internet has been so rewarding.

We live a wild life, and I want to share that and find others who are intrigued by the same ideas. I also hear all these rumors about how life can be, and I want to sift through the voices and find the truth underneath. We want to live deep and free, and ultimately, satisfied with our path. One of my favorite quotes, which has existed in some corner of this blog almost since the moment The Murphmans began, sums up our quest:

“But what is happiness except the harmony between a man and the life he leads?” – Albert Camus

On Sunday, May 1st you can still type our existing url into your browser, but it will redirect you to a new blog, The Wild Rumor. The goal for the new space is really simple: to be a place to write honest stories about our journey together. See you there! (:

I’m Baaaack!! (an update and good things from March)

It’s been about a month since my last post, so I’m popping in again for our monthly series on gratitude and “life lately”. March was a really great month for us, and I have no end of things to share.

Good Things

We started off the month with my birthday! I had gifts sent or given to me from far and near, and it was really a sweet start to year twenty-seven. Which, by the way, I can’t believe I’m heading into my late twenties. Just this last month, we watched the Friends episode where Rachel turns 30 and I totally (!!) get how she felt. I’ve been mourning the end of my twenties for at least two years. Unnecessary? Maybe. But true all the same.

We continued to get to know our new friends at our church in Kuala Lumpur, and we really were blessed by their hospitality and friendship. I can’t stress how special our time there was or how sad we were to leave. We loved KL!! We look forward to the day when we can meet again with some of those awesome people.